I apologize for not being able to post yesterday, but my lunch break was occupied by a SURPRISE PARTY for ME! Our wedding (celebration) is next Thursday, so everyone came together to celebrate!
Well, it was about as surprise as office surprise parties can be when they involve money exchanges and tons of homemade food. If I hadn’t already figured it out by yesterday, it sure would have been hard explaining why the kitchen was overflowing with food and why I hadn’t been asked to bring anything (it won’t be too healthy, I promise!).
We also had a staff lunch on Monday which has had me thinking about something since then.
I don’t know how to handle the comments that some people make about my eating.
I used to take pride in the fact that I could eat a lot of food and not gain any weight. I was pretty active as a kid and teenager and was able to stay consistently the same size for a long time. I was able to get away with this until a few years ago when my metabolism started to slow down and I became more sedentary. At that point I used exercise and food as a weapon against myself and those same comments fueled my obsession with staying thin.
I have talked about my issues with addiction and replacing one addiction with another, the most obvious being exercise and eating. (To read, start here). I feel that I am finally in a place where I can be cognizant of the damage that I can do to myself in the pursuit of “health” and have learned to balance eating, exercise, and an overall sense of well being.
What makes me uncomfortable is when I get comments like:
I’m asking to see if Erin ate some because she doesn’t eat enough
Eat more–that’s not enough on your plate!
Are you sure you won’t eat some cake? What are you on a diet?
Why are you always eating so healthy? Are you on a diet?
“Random eating observation”…What are you on a diet?
I am also a very fast eater, so if I finish my plate of food, I often get told (not asked) to get more food because I haven’t had enough. At 5’2″ (and a half!), I do not need 3 plates of food to get full.
I am just not sure how to handle this. I think it strikes a chord with me because there were times when I didn’t eat enough food, but I have tried very hard to now eat only when I am hungry, to eat foods that are good for me, and eat to the point where I am full.
My first reaction is to be defensive, but I think that I just need to stick with my convictions and not let all the comments bother me. I feel like I have to justify all of my eating decisions to other people. The fact is, though, that I know that I am not doing anything harmful to myself and I need to remember that whatever comes out of someone else’s mouth is their opinion and is shaped by whatever their thoughts and experiences are.
Still, although I know this, it is sometimes hard to respond with grace when these comments come up. I have to battle my people pleasing tendency and not do whatever others say so that they will feel placated. At the end of the day, it’s my body and my feelings that I have to deal with, not theirs. If I don’t want your cake, I’m not going to eat it. If I am legitimately full after I eat, I am not going to eat more. It is not a diet, it is a lifestyle and I am not going to change it for you.
Ok, enough ranting for today. Here are a couple pictures from the party:
No, I did not have a cupcake.
Question(s) of the day: Does this happen to anyone else? How do you deal with it?