After Monday’s reset I feel more prepared to take on life. In typical Thursday fashion, I am thinking out loud and want to take the time to share with you 10 things I’ve discovered by being true to myself.
I’ve spent lots and lots of time thinking that I should do this or should like that, but after awhile it gets really tiring and it prevents me from actually embracing and improving who I am as an individual. Here are some truths I’ve stumbled upon through lots of trial and error. Enjoy!
1. I don’t want to run a marathon
I’ve felt that since I write about running (not as much as of late) and run half marathons that the next logical step is to conquer a full marathon. I’m not saying never, but right now I have absolutely no interest in that beast. I always get to the end of a half and think “this would only be the halfway point of a full!” Then I eat lots of post-race food and am quite fine with my decision to cap it at 13.1 miles.
2. Writing, reading, and exercise are my three favorite things
When I entered recovery, people would ask me what I like to do for fun or in my spare time. I literally had no answer for them. Watch TV? Wallow in my own misery? I wasn’t able to pinpoint things that made me happy and brought me a sense of fulfillment.
Now I have many answers to that question, but my top three are writing, reading, and exercise. They are more than hobbies–they’re NEEDS for me to live a full and happy life. Not only are they my favorite things to do, but they are all areas where I am expanding my career in order to live doing things that I love!
3. I want to take over the world
Do you ever listen to your gut? Am I the only weird one who bases a lot of their decisions on that? Sometimes I take time to reflect on my life, its ups and downs, and where I am headed and something inside of me (gremlin/fairy/other tiny creature of your imagination) tells me that I am destined for GREAT things. When I actually choose to listen to that voice, I feel like I can take on anything and that the sky is the limit. These days I am choosing to listen more and more.
If you’re questioning yourself, read a book like The $100 Startup (affiliate). That’ll get you going in no time.
4. My feelings are valid
This may seem like a no brainer to some people, but for a long, long time I didn’t know when I was feeling something, what that feeling was, or how to express it. I thought my feelings were bad and I should keep them away in a little room. When I realized that wasn’t the case, I didn’t know how to let them out appropriately and questioned why I even had them. “Life would be much easier without these stupid things.” Then I realized that that thinking is what started my substance abuse and that anything I feel is valid and true to me. That’s made it much easier to embrace those pesky feelings when they come up.
5. I need to drink decaf
I drank regular espresso and coffee for a long time. I told myself that most of the American population does it and that whenever I was in a slump I should drink more and I would be cured. I went through months of unpredictable reactions to caffeine, none of them pleasant. Maybe I should get decaf. NO ONE DRINKS DECAF. (Lots of people drink decaf). When I realized that I could still enjoy the taste without the insanity, my decision was made and I haven’t looked back.
6. Sometimes I don’t love running
Buuuut sometimes I do. Running has been an incredible outlet for me, but sometimes I’m just not feeling it. I like a variety of workouts, so sometimes I put running on the back burner. I usually have some months of logging serious miles followed by a lot of time spent in the gym with HIIT workouts or strength training. It seems that this year the running has been sidelined for a bit longer than usual, but I know I’ll get back to it when I’m ready. (side note: when I proofread this I had typed “when I’m running.” Yes, I suppose that would mean I am back to it). I also want this shirt.
7. I will never be perfect
Again, this may seem like a given, but it took me years to accept. I won’t ever be perfect, but I will always be enough and that’s perfect for me.
8. I can accomplish anything I set my mind to
Along with taking over the world, I’ve realized that I’m an awesomely capable person. I am confident that I can do whatever I want as long as I can walk through the fear in getting there. I moved to Chicago with no job and only recent admin experience. In less than a year I have grown this blog, interned and then become employed teaching fitness classes, gotten my writing published in a variety of places, and become certified as a personal trainer. There may be more that I don’t give myself credit for, but I know for certain that that list is only going to keep growing.
9. I only like wearing dresses when I have to
Man, girls look so cute in all their little day-to-day dresses. I thought maybe I should buy some too, but when I did they just sat in my closet. I just can’t wear them unless I’m going to an event where I have to. It requires so much mental energy for me. A dress means that then I have to think about accessories AND shoes AND hair AND makeup. Oh man, I’m tired. That being said, when I do have to wear a dress I thoroughly enjoy it; I just can’t do it on the reg.
10. I get back what I put out into the world
Serious truth. When I want to isolate and hide inside my own protective bubble, no one comes to enrich my life. People will only reach out for so long and then I turn that into bitterness at how NO ONE LOVES ME and wind up less likely to open up to anyone else. I become self-obsessed and don’t treat other people very well.
HOWEVER, when I remember that we are all human beings trying to live this life, something changes. I am more tolerant, more giving, and less selfish. By treating others the way I want to be treated, the world becomes a better place. Helping out friends (or even strangers) brings us closer and means that they are there when I need them.
- What’s one thing you’ve discovered by being true to yourself?
- Do you like to wear dresses? (no gender discrimination here!)
- What are three of your favorite things?