Feelings are hard for me to describe. I can come up with all kinds of visual representations of scenery or things you actually look at, but since identifying and owning feelings is such a relatively new ability of mine, it’s difficult to approach them with the same competence. My plan for this post was to start with a loose idea and see where it took me. Sometimes I’m laser-focused on a topic and other times I only have a rough idea of what I want to say, so I sit down and let my fingers do the talking. My rough idea… View Post

May is mental health awareness month, so I wanted to make sure I talked about it before it was over. I feel like the past several posts have been about mental health in one way or another — my seven year clean date, my decision to make more time for this blog, and my announcement of my writing sabbatical in September. I’ll be sure to get back to fitness, food, and other helpful wellness posts, but this is always a passion of mine so we’ve got one more for you for now. I struggle with depression and anxiety, as do… View Post

A couple weeks ago I got a massage. It was part of Neil’s birthday present and I didn’t think much of it aside from the fact that my body could certainly use one. As a personal trainer and someone who works out pretty aggressively, rest days and active recovery are something that need to be incorporated into my schedule. I’ve got the rest days down, but I don’t do much for active recovery. I know well enough that things like yoga, massage, and other forms of holistic treatment can sometimes elicit emotional responses as well. It’s why I don’t do… View Post

My friend Ange wrote a post about how bloggers aren’t entitled to free things, which solidified my own feelings I had been having about the value of blogging itself. This post was primarily going to focus on that, but since it’s more of a thinking out loud kind of day, I decided to connect several points together in a rambling, yet hopefully concise, statement. That was a lot of commas. We’re off to a good start. First I’ll address the blogging bit and move on considering not all of you are bloggers. For a couple years I have read pleading comments… View Post

I’m a very Type A person.  I make to-do lists, I don’t like change, and even though I can’t, I want to control everything and everyone around me. The subject of this post has come up twice in two days, so I figured it was something I should write about.  I was discussing the recovery process and generally how I had evolved from point A to point B over the years. As much as I would LOVE for there to be step-by-step directions on how to get to a desired result, there is no recipe. Growing up, learning about yourself,… View Post