I like to throw in some recovery-related posts here and there, and it dawned on me that I’ve posted about being actively addicted and then not actively addicted, but nothing really about what I’ve done to maintain that cessation. Relapse is a huge part of addiction, and many people I know have relapsed with both positive and negative results. It’s been eight years for me and thankfully relapse isn’t a part of my story. I owe a lot of that to the people who helped me early in recovery and my own understanding that the bottom I hit was it… View Post

When I learned that I would have to give up drinking 8 years ago, I was none too happy about it. I obviously realized that giving up the illegal, dependency-causing drugs was for the best, but alcohol? WHY?? I threw a tantrum like a petulant child as my mind raced through every scenario until the end of time where I would need to be drunk, and likely far more so than my peers. First, I was going to be in a wedding ten days later. I MUST have alcohol there. Second, I’m sure I would have my own wedding some… View Post

As I scrolled through social media this weekend following the news of the third in a list of celebrity suicides, I found myself becoming more and more annoyed as the day went on. I was constantly being bombarded with a phone number that I never see except for one day following events like these, yet I, and many others, know how to Google it should it become a necessary option. I watched stories on Instagram about how it’s been a shitty week because two people died, but “at least the week will end on a happy note” here at my… View Post

Welp, here we are again. 🙂 I’ve made it another year in recovery — welcome to wrapping up year number eight! This is the fourth post I’ve written on the anniversary of the day I decided to choose a path that would change my life in ways I didn’t even realize. Each year I go back and read the previous ones (I’ve linked them at the bottom of this post) and wonder how I can write something different from the year before. This year I think it’s important to emphasize the importance of self. Before diving into that, I want… View Post

Last month I received a message letting me know that someone I used to know had been addicted to heroin for awhile. I don’t get as many messages like this as I used to — phone calls about friends dying from overdoses or emails about how to help a loved one with a substance problem. Because I’m not as closely intertwined with addiction after being clean for almost eight years, it was a story I wasn’t entirely prepared for. I worried about her family, I worried about her job, and most importantly I worried about her. I wondered what she… View Post