When I learned that I would have to give up drinking 8 years ago, I was none too happy about it. I obviously realized that giving up the illegal, dependency-causing drugs was for the best, but alcohol? WHY?? I threw a tantrum like a petulant child as my mind raced through every scenario until the end of time where I would need to be drunk, and likely far more so than my peers. First, I was going to be in a wedding ten days later. I MUST have alcohol there. Second, I’m sure I would have my own wedding some… View Post

As I scrolled through social media this weekend following the news of the third in a list of celebrity suicides, I found myself becoming more and more annoyed as the day went on. I was constantly being bombarded with a phone number that I never see except for one day following events like these, yet I, and many others, know how to Google it should it become a necessary option. I watched stories on Instagram about how it’s been a shitty week because two people died, but “at least the week will end on a happy note” here at my… View Post

Welp, here we are again. 🙂 I’ve made it another year in recovery — welcome to wrapping up year number eight! This is the fourth post I’ve written on the anniversary of the day I decided to choose a path that would change my life in ways I didn’t even realize. Each year I go back and read the previous ones (I’ve linked them at the bottom of this post) and wonder how I can write something different from the year before. This year I think it’s important to emphasize the importance of self. Before diving into that, I want… View Post

Last month I received a message letting me know that someone I used to know had been addicted to heroin for awhile. I don’t get as many messages like this as I used to — phone calls about friends dying from overdoses or emails about how to help a loved one with a substance problem. Because I’m not as closely intertwined with addiction after being clean for almost eight years, it was a story I wasn’t entirely prepared for. I worried about her family, I worried about her job, and most importantly I worried about her. I wondered what she… View Post

This post may not resonate with many of you, but I know it applies to at least some. I haven’t had a drink in 7.5 years. It’s certainly not because I don’t want to, but because I’m someone who doesn’t know when to stop once I start. Holidays were always an excellent time to cover up a serious drinking problem because it was a socially acceptable thing to do. I felt relieved that people may not point out that I had had too much or focus on what I was doing because they would likely be drinking as well. Alcohol… View Post