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Sometimes We Teach What We Need To Learn

Sometimes it takes repeating the same messages to others for us to internalize them ourselves. See why sometimes we need to teach what we need to learn.

I’ve had this topic on my list for months now. What I usually do when planning out my content is review my master list of topics and the one that speaks to me that day is usually the one I’m meant to write. I’ll write ideas down whenever I have them, but sometimes by the time it comes to pick a topic, that one is not ready for the world yet.

I think it was actually over the summer when this idea came to me. I was in the middle of working on my marriage and dealing with an emotional state that finally found a name in a diagnosis of depression. I was writing this blog as I normally did, but I felt compelled to write posts that were focused on treating yourself well, embracing your imperfections, and ultimately emphasizing that at any time and any day, you are enough. I realized that as much as I wanted to convey those messages, they were also the ones that I had the hardest time internalizing.

You know how advice for others always comes easily, but when you turn it around on yourself you have a hard time following it? That’s how I felt writing those pieces. It’s like I knew that this is how I should be treating myself and the steps I should take to have a healthier life inside and out, but I couldn’t always follow along.

Subscribing to the adage that practice makes perfect, I learned that repeatedly focusing and writing on these subjects was slowly helping me get to a place of acceptance and self-love that I don’t think I would have gotten to as quickly if it weren’t for the need to show up and share my words with you (so THANK YOU).

I don’t think that I would have been able to write this post at that time because I wasn’t quite out of the woods yet. My appreciation and care for myself has increased tremendously in the last 6-8 months, but there are still certain life subjects that I need to revisit more than once in order to more fully internalize the message. Here are some examples:

1. Exercise

I chose to be a personal trainer and a fitness instructor both because I love the subject matter and because helping others and pushing them to achieve their best is something that resonates with me. Teaching classes is an incredible reminder of the power that each one of us has and that we can constantly grow and achieve new goals. I constantly repeat messages about working as hard as you can, learning to silence that negative voice, and that on any given day, you should be proud of the work you’re doing.

It’s not easy to add a regular exercise routine into an already busy adult life. It takes planning, dedication, and a desire to be better. Teaching students that come to a 5:15 am class is always an inspiring experience and both seeing those people and repeating those positive messages helps me realize why I choose to live the way I do.

2. Self-care

This has been incredibly important for me to prioritize and understand. I went through many years bending to the will of others and acting in caretaking roles, which ultimately left me lacking a sense of identity. I didn’t know what I liked or didn’t like and I didn’t realize that I was important enough to put first.

With as much as I run around during the day, it can be easy to forget to put myself first. Some days I like to schedule a little extra time between clients so I can do things like treat myself to a delicious coffee or donut (or both). I try and get all my blog work done during the day so that I can spend time with Neil or even just myself and a good book. With repeated practice, I’ve come to view self-care as a necessity and not something selfish.

Related: 10 Self-care Tips for When Life Gets Hard

3. Progress not perfection

This one still gets me. I struggle between being too hard on myself and absolving myself of all responsibility as I try to find that imperfect balance. Life is a journey and it’s about trying to do your best each day. If you fall short, you can always start again. Perfection is an unreachable goal, but since it was a concept so ingrained in my thinking, it takes repeated messages to the contrary for me to finally hear them.

The days that I know I don’t have to be perfect are AMAZING. The days when I forget are stressful and disappointing. I’m much quicker to forgive myself for mistakes I make, but it’s continually a process that I’m not perfect at conceptualizing (SEE WHAT I DID THERE?).

Related: The Importance of Learning to Critique Your Story

4. Learning my worth

By not prioritizing myself, I made it easy to let others take advantage of me. I didn’t set boundaries at work or at home, and I found myself resenting many people and places despite the results being due to my own actions. I settled for less compensation than I deserved and I was afraid to ask for what I wanted.

If anyone were to come and ask me about work-life boundaries or how much they should be charging for sponsored posts/social media campaigns, I would have no problem offering my advice. When I flip the script, I’m often less confident about my own decisions. I’ve gotten much better at the boundary issue, but I still struggle with asking to be appropriately compensated for my time and my work. Baby steps.

Related: 6 Ways You Are Sabotaging Your Personal Growth

Thanks to Amanda for letting me think out loud.

Questions:

  • Can you relate to any of these examples?
  • Do you have any of your own?

34 comments on “Sometimes We Teach What We Need To Learn

  1. It is the “those who can’t do, teach” idea but slightly different. Some people don’t know how to take their own advice. But I also think that, once you figure out what you need to learn, and actually learn it, that you are a better teacher because you know that matter from the inside out. But the key is to get beyond just preaching, and actually get to practicing.
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    1. Most definitely. Once I finally internalized the things I was saying it made me a much better person and even better at trying to help others internalize it too.

  2. I can definitely relate to this. I recently started to teach yoga and I find that I am more of a relaxed, wind down the day and let go kind of teacher. In other words, right now I dont feel like I can teach more of a power yoga class. I find this is because I need that reminder to let go and relax. Everyone holds so much stress these days and I hope in my class that the students can let go a bit but it is also something I am reminding myself to do at the same time.
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  3. I completely understand this – in fact, most of my best writing (for myself and for others to read) is usually a result of some type of struggle/dark place.
    And the process usually opens my eyes up to something I needed to see all along.
    #4 is a big one for me. I’m all talk about OTHER people realizing their value but I have a hard time realizing mine. Especially since I always saw myself obtaining further education, working in a high-power field, etc.
    Thanks for sharing <3
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  4. #3 is something I struggle with a lot, and I find that I tend to bounce back and forth between the extremes rather than find a nice comfy place in the middle. I’ll either work my ass off and be way too hard on myself, or just throw my hands in the air and give up on everything. It’s gotten better over the years, but definitely still something that needs work.
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  5. I just journaled something very similar to this post a couple weeks back. I’ve been contemplating a change in career the last year or two and recently had someone ask me if I ever thought about being a wellness coach. My first reaction was, “How can I possibly be a wellness coach when I’m still working on my own hangups??” But it’s so much easier to help other people along if you’ve made (or are still making) the journey yourself, isn’t it? It’s one thing to be able to look at a map and give someone directions using street names alone; it’s entirely another to be able to fill in the details with landmarks because you’ve made the drive yourself.

    1. Haha too funny. I always try and think about what I would tell someone else in my situation but it’s not always easy to follow that advice!

  6. #3 and #4 really resonated with things I’ve been dealing with lately! Perfectionism is something I’m naturally inclined to take way too far (even when I was a kid), and it’s a lifelong battle for me to be kind to myself. I’m also contemplating a job transition, and I had to REALLY step out of my comfort zone to negotiate compensation. Why have we been conditioned to feel so icky for just expecting what we are worth? I found that it wasn’t so hard once I was well-prepared, but knowing how to prepare isn’t easy. There is some good advice on the internet but it’s not applicable to every situation or industry.
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    1. I usually sell myself short in that arena. I have some opportunities coming up and I’m going to have to put my big girl pants on. Eek.

  7. SELF CARE. Erin, I have six kids, two of which are my step-kids, all within a blended family. My husband has bipolar disorder and has been in and out of hospital. My oldest son who is 15 has been in and out as well, for different reasons. And I? I have an anxiety disorder. Like, no shit.

    I will never forget the day that my dad said something that made me hate him for years. He said (condescendingly), “Oh leave it to Suzy to try and save the world.” I lost my relationship over that statement but eventually got it back, along with my spirit. Because the old fart was right.

    I can love well. Sure. I can live well, totally. But I can only go halfway, and then everyone else has to meet me there with their drawstrings taught and their fight faces on otherwise? I’m out. And when I show up to that drawing line, you better believe that I will be standing there all in, balls out. I will do whatever it takes to take care of Suzy so that she’s whole and healthy.

    Showering used to feel luxurious. Shaving my legs? Criminal. Now I take care of me, coconut oil and all while everyone else can fuck right off because they’ll thank me when they meet me halfway. <3
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    1. Totally true! Now that I’ve been doing it for awhile I realize how valuable it is and I’m not afraid to ask for what I’m worth. Recently I had the same thing happen when negotiating a social media role. I was like “I’m really good at what I do which is why this is my price!”

  8. This post resonates with me as I am ending 25 years of caretaking family. I had to relearn my own value and give myself a new found much needed credit for finally putting myself first, recognition of my own needs and credit for learning boundaries after all these years of putting myself last. Great post

    1. Thanks Lexie! I love that you’re taking the time to figure out what you need and want. You’re the most important person in your life!

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