It's OK To Have An Angry Day - Erin's Inside Job

It’s OK To Have An Angry Day

Instead of trying to deny or change negative feelings, acknowledge them and work on making the most of  your day. Remember, it's ok to have an angry day.

Most days I wake up feeling pretty good.

Since being properly treated for my depression for about a year now (!), I no longer wake up feeling anxious, lethargic, and like the whole world is out to get me. I usually wake up ready to take on the day and able to practice gratitude for all the things I have and have worked for over time.

The other week I did not have one of those days.

I woke up feeling overwhelmed and dreading the day as it lay before me. There wasn’t any particular reason for my feeling this way, so being neurotic as I am, I immediately went to “OMG MY MEDICATION ISN’T WORKING ANYMORE. I’M DEPRESSED. MY LIFE IS SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL. I’M NOT JOYOUS IMMEDIATELY AFTER WAKING. WHAT’S THE REASON FOR THIS? WHAT’S THE REEEEASON??”

I felt rushed and confused, which made me afraid, which led me to having little to no patience for the rest of the day. Usually when I’m fearful, it translates to sadness and inactivity for me, but this time it transformed itself into anger.

I was angry at the people on the street. They walked too slow. They were in my way. They were talking too loud on their stupid phones. They were taking touristy pictures with that stupid statue I hate near my house. Everything they did was stupid and I wanted nothing to do with anyone.

Here’s what I do with feelings that are categorized as “negative” or “bad”: I tell myself to stop feeling them immediately because they are undesirable and I shouldn’t be having them.

Note: this is not what you SHOULD do, but it is my default from years of reinforcement.

Every negative feeling I would have, from sadness to jealousy to anger, I would tell myself to stop. Just stop it. There’s no use for this feeling, it will always pass anyway, and you should be feeling “good” feelings such as happiness and joy.

Now here’s the problem with feelings and one that I didn’t learn until I was like 28 years old — feelings are crazy. They’re nuts. They’re like a 2 year old child that you chase all around the house. You simply can’t control them. They’re their own being, they show up, and your role is simply reactionary.

Basically, the only way out of feelings is through. The longer you try and control them, the more petulant they get.

It drives me insane when I can’t find a reason for feeling a certain way. Absolutely insane. I’m such a practical and scientific-minded person that THERE MUST ALWAYS BE A REASON FOR EVERYTHING. The truth is that sometimes feelings just come up. The only thing you can do is acknowledge them and move on.

In my angry-day example, I started off the day by trying to figure out the angry. Where did it come from? What was I scared of? Could I trace it back to anything in particular? When the answer was no, I started ruminating over it and trying to force myself to feel a different way. IF THERE’S NO REASON FOR IT, THEN IT CAN’T BE RIGHT. MUST. FIX. FEELINGS.

The problem with this approach is that the longer you deny a feeling, the longer it stays with you. Think about feelings like puppies. Try and ignore one and it will continue to crawl all over you or nip you with its sharp puppy teeth or jump on you until you pay attention to it. If you simply stop and give it the attention it needs, you’ll be more likely to go about your day without it commanding your every moment of attention. Play with it a little until it gets tired and goes to sleep. 🙂

Ok, back to my angry day. As soon as I realized I needed to pay attention to the anger, which was brought about from fear, which was brought about by waking up in a funky mood, I accepted that it was just an off day and pretty soon my mind stopped being consumed with it.

Every day is not going to be sunshine. The next time something upsets you or even if you feel negatively for no apparent reason, just acknowledge that feeling. Don’t try and change it. Accept it for what it is and then take steps to make the most out of your day.

Remember, it’s ok to have an angry day.

Thanks to Amanda for letting me think out loud.

Questions:

  • Have you ever had an angry day?
  • What do you do with negative feelings?

33 comments on “It’s OK To Have An Angry Day

  1. I think that, in general, we need to allow ourselves to have emotions and feelings. It is when they consistently interfere with our lives and are based on nothing (ie: anxiety attacks over insignificant things) that we need to look into the problem further and ask ourselves if what is going on is a redirection of feelings that we can handle on our own or if we need intervention.
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  2. This is really good for me to read, because I often just get depressed when I have an off day, but identifying the cause of the problem really does help so much, because it helps you to be logical about it and actually face the problem instead of running from it.
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    1. Absolutely. And sometimes there may not be a readily identifiable root of the problem. Those are the most frustrating for me. You just have to ride it out.

  3. Man oh man do I have these days. Usually it happens if I forget to take my birth control for a day or too. My hormones go INSANE. And everything makes me mad. Knowing the cause helps me sometimes, but then there are days we just feel suckish and don’t know why. I think you’re helping a lot of people by acknowledging that it’s okay to not shove down those feelings. To experience them and allow yourself to be human.
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  4. I think one of the worst things we can do when we have a bad day is beat ourselves up over it. Because then, not only are we having an off day, but we’re making ourselves feel even worse by thinking that we shouldn’t be feeling that way. Not every day is going to be sunshine and rainbows, and sometimes no matter what we do, we’re just gonna feel like crap. Thankfully a good night’s sleep usually fixes things right up.
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    1. Yeah it’s usually back to normal sooner than later. It’s when things stick around for awhile that it might be good to put a little more focus on what’s going on

  5. Thanks for this reminder. I am the same way – if I wake up feeling “off” or god-forbid, angry, I feel like there has to be this huge explanation and then, when there’s not, I just beat myself up. Nope. Sometimes people – all of us – just get in a bad mood. It’s ok!
    And, considering I am on my 2nd day of taking an antidepressant, I’m going to try my darnedest to remember that bad days happen even when medicated!!
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    1. Ooh good luck! Let me know if you want to talk about anything. The first week or two when I started mine were a little rough

  6. Ugh Erin I love these posts. Our minds are crazy things. I’ve been having off days here and there and I just don’t even know WHAT to think some times. But I think you’re right about just accepting how you feel and trying to move on.

  7. Wow. AMAZING post. You have no idea how much I needed to read this today.

    I’m having more of a sad, defeated, powerless day. And there are reasons for it.

    But I’m still trying to squash those feelings down and tell myself I’m wrong for feeling this way.

    But you’re right. It’s okay to feel sometimes. And it helps to read about your journey.

    Thank you, as always, for sharing and being so open, Erin.

    xoxo
    Robyn

    1. Ahh Robyn I’m sorry you’re having a tough day. I wish I could always shove negative feelings aside bc it’s so much easier than actually going through them. I find the more I do that though the quicker I can move past them. Let me know if you ever want to talk or grab coffee or whatevvvvaaaaa! 🙂

      1. Thanks Erin!

        Things have gotten better. Just a rough week! But I’m back in Chicago remounting the show and would love to grab coffee sometime! 🙂

        Robyn

  8. Girl, I have angry days all the time. Well, maybe not days, but 1/2 days or hours – lol! We are all allowed to feel the emotions we feel. If anyone tells us we can’t, well F THEM. They don’t deserve even a second of your time!
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  9. Such a great reminder. Sometimes I wake up like that too, and I often get mad at myself for being angry. I have learned to just let myself feel that anger and pray that it will pass. Thank you for this Erin!

  10. So, I chuckled at your anger, not because it’s funny, but because it’s SO MUCH LIKE ME when I’m having a cranky day.
    Girl, I feel you (ha, see what I did there) so much on this. We need to FEEL our FEELINGS and whatever it is that you feel, it’s valid.
    Some days I just close my office door and put myself in a timeout because I am not fit to be around others and that is totally okay!
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